I have spent some reflecting time tonight. I thought about why I have been so obsessed with RA/OA lately? Why have I been reading blogs, twittering, and meeting new people via the Internet? (And why did the St. Louis Cardinals play so bad tonight, but that's another subject.) Why did I write such a sad blog post this morning? I removed it tonight. I think I was just having a big pity party.
Pity parties can be fun if done right.. Have a big bowl of your favorite comfort food, mine is ice-cream, don't dress, comb you hair, or answer the phone. Make a list of all the people you know that are better off than you are. If you really want to have fun call one of them and whine. Maybe watch an old movie and cried out loud during it.
No, I think I was reflecting because I know it's time to move on and get more positive. Last winter I had a quiet, but strong urge to turn my ailments into something good. Maybe, just maybe I can. "I think I can, I think I can...I will".